Gail

October 28, 2014 Wake-up Paages

Me: Who is here?
G: I'm here. Gail.
Me: Gail?
G: I'm Gail. I'm your neighbor. *
Me: Gail H? 
G: I'm stuck because I miss my husband.
Me: I remember when you died. L. was devastated. 
G: I think he was trying to be----------**
Me: What? 
G: He lived a long time.
Me: Yeah? Do you think he was unfaithful? Or not sad enough?
G: I think he should have let me go sooner. 
Me: Let you die sooner?
G: No he should have let me go after I died. But he clung. He clung until...
Me: Until? 
G: Until I was too weak to move on.
Me: Are you willing to move on now?
G: Sure. I just don't have any energy. I wasted all I had trying to comfort him.
Me: And then when he finally turned his attention to another woman?
G: Yes. I'm suddenly without all the energy he had been pouring into me. Everyone else had moved on and I was stuck.
Me: I'll get Ben to help you.
B: Hi. I'm Ben. I'll take you to the Timeless Spaceless place. 
G: Hi Ben. I'll be glad to go. 
B: You're not even going to ask what it's like?
G: Why would I?
B: Other people do. 
G: It's going to be fine. I'll be fine. I'm ready to go. Take my hand please, Ben.
B: Take your hand? Of course. We'll walk to the beautiful new Next World together.
G: (to me) Thank you, Chrissie. I knew you were a good girl to live next door to.  A Good neighbor.


* Gail and her husband were nice people who lived next door to us when I was growing up.  She died when I was about 12.   Like all my family and close friends, she called me Chris or Chrissie. 
** This was a complicated thought that did not come through easily.  Ben says that she was trying to say something like "He was trying to be able to keep me with him and alive in his memory for the rest of his life."