One of our friends sent us this news article about the man who had invented the Kalashnikov automatic rifle. She said, "I wonder how do people who invented different weapons feel about it as souls. A lousy mission to complete down here- to be the inventor of another way to kill." Someone else pointed out that he was helping to defend his country against Hitler and didn't that at least partially mitigate the evil he had accomplished.
BEN: This man did his best to do what was required of him. In his way he was trying to serve his country and his fellow soldiers. In nearly all cases where someone is called to serve and does dreadful harm his problem results from trying to serve a circle that is too small. He did well creating a weapon to match that of the Germans. He regrets that criminals have used his weapons and that children were killed with them. In his next life he is going to understand his duty to all those he affected when he tried to serve his own and did such evil to others. In his next lives he is going to create bigger circles of human being who own his loyalty.
Donya: I asked if he was going to stop contributing to violence in his future lives.
Maybe but if he does there will be others to take his place. The world isn't ready to give up violence. It is profitable and, for many people, enjoyable. Before there is an end to it people must expand the circles of those they perceive as like themselves. Eventually all the circles will overlap each other like a giant Venn diagram and no one will be able to find anyone suitable to kill or hurt.
Sometimes it feels like you are being haunted. When one terrible thing after another happens or when nothing particularly bad happens but you just feel scared or anxious or unhappy for no reason. In all likelihood what you are being haunted by are thought forms that have had too much energy invested in them. When you have a negative thought and you invest energy in it, usually in the form of emotion, that thought will become more and more tangible. Eventually if enough energy is invested it will seem to take on a life of its own. When a lot of people have the same negative thought over a long period of time, say like church people over a couple thousand years, some heavy duty thought forms can develop. People call them demons and think they are something special and powerful. They are powerful but they are not independent entities. If you want to be free of them you just have to divest yourself of those thoughts and emotions and beliefs. I say "just" but it isn't always easy. A lot of people can't do it until they leave their bodies. And then sometimes they need help.
The same thing can happen with individual thought forms, though on a smaller scale. If you have had extremely sad or angry or bitter or frightened thoughts about your late mother or father or lover or spouse or best friend or worst enemy or the circumstances around their passing or about someone associated with them and you keep replaying those thoughts over a long period of time you could be building up hostile thought forms.
I had occasion once to help a young man who had been murdered and he was badly frightened by what he thought were evil entities./violent-death.html The poor boy had been abused as a child and grew up hurt and angry. He was filled with thoughts of people he hated and ways he would get revenge. He had a friend who was Sensitive and could feel a little bit of what he was going through. That young man was very frightened too. Of course one of the reasons the living boy felt the other boy's experience so clearly is that he too was building up powerful thought forms from a life time of angry, frightened and hurt feelings. His thought forms matched those of the dead boy and they connected, creating something that seemed more powerful than they were and independent from them. Fortunately once I explained to the dead boy what was happening he sent back word to his friends that they must not dwell on how angry they were about his death and they must not obsess about revenge. Those thoughts would only create scary looking entities like the ones he was dealing with and attract more trouble and hurt into their lives. He was able to let go of all the thoughts and emotions that were keeping him attached to the dark, scary, sticky things and move on the Other Side.
What seems to be a haunting or a curse usually has a much more mundane explanation. Sometimes when you are feeling bad you can get caught in a downward emotional spiral that seems to bring you more things to feel bad about. It's easy for one of these spirals to get started when someone dies so it's important not to dwell on how bad you feel. For example, it's natural to be sad or even angry when someone dies. But you don't want to think about how sad you are and resent that you are sad and then feel ashamed that you resent that you are sad and then be angry that you have to be ashamed that you resent how sad you are. And you don't want to think about how much worse you feel than you have ever felt before and think up a lot of ways to describe to your friends how bad you feel.
Emotions are like magnetic energy and they attract things that match. It's important when you are going through a time of grief or any challenge that involves intense emotions to try to find things to feel good about. It isn't disrespectful or irreverent to enjoy friends and family and good weather and good food and children and babies and puppies and kitties and anything else you enjoy. Positive emotions are the best defense you have against any sort of evil. It's all energy. Whether it's on this side or the other, the difference between good and evil is how you manage your energy.
Love from Ben
In the first place I want to say that dead people have gotten a bad rap. If you hear from us we are spooky and creepy ghosts or spirits and if you don't hear from us we are the "dearly departed" who have nothing better to do than rest in peace.
In the second place I want to say that I loved life. I loved my life and I loved life in general. I did not want to leave and I fought with every ounce of strength I had to recover from that nasty illness so I could go on living and loving and creating and enjoying the cities and the mountains and the forests and the beaches and the oceans and the rivers and streams of this beautiful planet. And I will honestly admit I was afraid. Nobody wants to admit they are afraid to die, but come on, we have all heard the stories of what awaits for those of us who were no better than I was. I wasn't real real bad. But I wasn't real real good either. And I wasn't sure if they would be grading on a curve.
This is my first blog entry on my Zen of Ben website. I hope to share more of my thoughts on an ongoing basis. Donya will continue to post excerpts from her notebooks and from online discussions we have joined. The most important message I want to convey to you is that you don't have to be afraid to die. There are wonderful adventures still ahead. The other thing I want to tell you is that you don't need to grieve nearly as much as you think you do when someone else dies. Of course you miss the physical presence of those you love and there are serious practical difficulties when someone loses a parent, child or a spouse. Donya posted a description I gave her of what I went through when I realized I was about to die before I had finished making arrangements for my young daughter to be provided for. It was terrifying and very painful. The painful part was having to come back into my body. But once I had my affairs in order and was free to depart, the sense of relief I felt was beyond the power of words to descibe. Come back soon and I'll tell you more. xo BEN